I Have No Clever Title

I have nothing to say other than I think I am failing at life. I stopped taking my anti-depressants after slowly cutting down my dosage and I really feel like I am dying. Last week was terrible. All I wanted to do was cry and go to sleep. My whole body felt numb, my brain felt like it had electric shocks going through it, and I have been super irritable and cranky. One night I really felt like I was going to have a seizure or a stroke. This stuff is terrible. To add to it: Have you guys tried to be a student? Ugh, I go through the same thing every semester, I am like a professional college student by now, I think I'm still working on my associates degree after 4 years! I have SO much homework. WHY IS THERE SO MUCH HOMEWORK? Don't they know I need shoot guns? Or sleep sometime? Don't they understand how important Nextflix and Hulu are to me? I've calculated it down to 5 semesters left. If I keep taking 2 classes at a time, and IF I pass them all, I will finally be a professional genealogist with no desire to do anything with life.

For dinner one night I had no desire to eat while doing homework so this is what I had for dinner:

Judge me

In between homework, I have been making music videos on the app called Musicl.ly, featuring my dogs. Here is Gangster Roxy

On the plus side last week, I lost 3 pounds! Thank you! I added extra weight to my barbell and to my free weights. I am still hoping and praying on that booty. Where are you?

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