I Have No Clever Title

I have nothing to say other than I think I am failing at life. I stopped taking my anti-depressants after slowly cutting down my dosage and I really feel like I am dying. Last week was terrible. All I wanted to do was cry and go to sleep. My whole body felt numb, my brain felt like it had electric shocks going through it, and I have been super irritable and cranky. One night I really felt like I was going to have a seizure or a stroke. This stuff is terrible. To add to it: Have you guys tried to be a student? Ugh, I go through the same thing every semester, I am like a professional college student by now, I think I'm still working on my associates degree after 4 years! I have SO much homework. WHY IS THERE SO MUCH HOMEWORK? Don't they know I need shoot guns? Or sleep sometime? Don't they understand how important Nextflix and Hulu are to me? I've calculated it down to 5 semesters left. If I keep taking 2 classes at a time, and IF I pass them all, I will finally be a professional genealogist with no desire to do anything with life.

For dinner one night I had no desire to eat while doing homework so this is what I had for dinner:

Judge me

In between homework, I have been making music videos on the app called Musicl.ly, featuring my dogs. Here is Gangster Roxy

On the plus side last week, I lost 3 pounds! Thank you! I added extra weight to my barbell and to my free weights. I am still hoping and praying on that booty. Where are you?

Comments

Easter and Not Having Friends at Church

I had the privilege of teaching the Easter lesson this Sunday. I taught on the Savoir's last week on earth. I hid Easter eggs all over the room with scpritures on Christ inside them. The girls loved the Easter egg hunt because their parents say they are too old for egg hunts. Sunday's are hard sometimes. I caught my self crying during sacrament today. well, because I have no friends. About a year ago our Ward was dissolved. I had a lot of friends at church, some who have become my best friends. My good friend Jenni who lives a block away and was really my only friend in the ward, moved across town yesterday. Another family I am friends with is moving as well. Church is the hardest place to make friends. I feel like because I don't have kids, and I'm not a newly wed, I don't fit in with any of the groups. The people my age have a million kids, and the couples without kids are kids themselves and just got married like last week, and no one has really wanted to be my

2016

I have sat and thought a lot about what I am going to say in this post. So much has happened this year, its been rough but it also has been a blessing. What doesn't kill us makes us stronger, right? I learned a lot this year. First of all the biggest thing I learned that I definitely paid for was listening to bad feelings. I learned what true friendship was, and saw the ones who cared and saw the ones who didn't. I learned about priorities and what really is important in life. I learned of death and that death is not the end. I learned patience. Maybe I didn't learn patience but I tolerated patience. I learned and always knew that no matter what happens in life that you and your spouse are all that matters. Lets start off with January. Chris was working at the juvenile detention center 45 minuets away from our house. This was a wonderful job opportunity that we both felt so good about. It started to become rough. He was gone all the time and we never saw each other. He

Treat Yo Self!

I love to pamper myself, on a budget of course. But what girl doesn't? I promise I am in no way high maintenance, hence the fact all my clothes come from Wal Mart, I'm obsessed with guns and I love the outdoors. But there is a side of me who loooooves to get her nails did and spend too much money on all the pretty makeup. My friends own a beauty school here in my town and I get all my beauty services done there, 1, its a really good price and 2, the students need to learn and I am not picky! Plus some of my friends work there and its fun to see them! I also think it might be a problem when the receptionist knows its you on the phone... Since school is destroying my life I haven't been to the salon in forever!! Also, my bestie JP moved away and we would go get our nails done every two weeks. Last week I decided I NEEDED a microderm. Basically, a microderm is someone with a sandpaper machine going over your face with it to get rid of dead skin cells which can result in glowin

Alys in Real Life

Search This Blog