Alys in Real Life

I had the privilege of teaching the Easter lesson this Sunday. I taught on the Savoir's last week on earth. I hid Easter eggs all over the room with scpritures on Christ inside them. The girls loved the Easter egg hunt because their parents say they are too old for egg hunts.  Sunday's are hard sometimes. I caught my self crying during sacrament today. well, because I have no friends. About a year ago our Ward was dissolved. I had a lot of friends at church, some who have become my best friends. My good friend Jenni who lives a block away and was really my only friend in the ward, moved across town yesterday. Another family I am friends with is moving as well. Church is the hardest place to make friends. I feel like because I don't have kids, and I'm not a newly wed, I don't fit in with any of the groups. The people my age have a million kids, and the couples without kids are kids themselves and just got married like last week, and no one has really wanted to be my

My eyes have still been giving troubles since I got them. I can't see anything at night time, and I feel like I just might die when I drive at night. So the Doctor at my office tried a new lens on my glasses for the night to see if it would help. I looked pretty silly with it. But I feel like that lens worked better, so the Doctor gave me a new prescription so maybe I wont die next time I drive at night. Instead of going to the gym on Wednesday I took the pups for a walk around the park. I have this pouch that is a holster from Pistol Wear that I won in a raffle. I didn't like the holster very much when I first got it so it just has been sitting in my closet. I decided to give it a try on my walk and I actually really liked it. I even did some running with it and it worked fine. I think I will like using this holster when I go work out outside. In the summer I like to run and walk the dogs around the river or at the park, so this holster will be a very comfy way of me

Chris and I went to see the final Hunger Games movie Friday night. As I was watching it, I thought to myself, wow I am just like Katniss Everdean. Katniss is a strong gal who has been through a lot. Katniss doesn't get how great she is. People are doing everything they can to keep her alive, and helping her on her journey, and she just doesn't get why people are so nice to her, she feels like she doesn't deserve it. I feel the same way. In all honesty,I really do not like myself. I have this bad vision of who I am. I dislike so much about me. I try my best to put on a show, and full face a makeup and act like I am so confident in myself maybe even sometimes it comes off as cocky. I don't like my face, my body, and my brain. I have made many mistakes in life before I got married and for the longest time I thought The Lord was punishing me with infertility because of my mistakes I committed in the past. I felt like I didn't deserve to me a mom, I hated myself for it.

At the office on Monday I was wearing a bun, because I didn't wash my hair for three days (dry shampoo works wonders) Amy, my co-worker and friend said I was rocking the look with my glasses and bun, so I needed to make it official and stick a pencil in my hair. I left it there for a while until the Doctor came around, and he scares me so I quickly took it out. I needed a big detox from the weekend so I fed myself lots of fruits and veggies for lunch and throughout the day and flushed my system out with 100oz of water. I lost 2 pounds the next day. I needed it.                                             My days off are Tuesdays, and I am supposed to be doing home work on those days, I always forget that I am a college student. So I went to the gym, then went to the dentist. My dentist has a TV on the ceiling, its so fancy, I love it. As much as I hate the dentist, Ill handle it to watch cable. I watched a little bit of The Food Network while the lady scrapped away at my