Candy, Salad, and my addictions to sweets and Diet Mnt Dew

Monday morning I woke up no pregnant. Yay! I'm ok though. There was a point in my life when I was so depressed about not being pregnant I was a little suicidal and then I got me some crazy pills, and I'm fine now. I am finally understanding the Lord's plan for me. His plan is not my plan. I have to wait, and I don't know why, nor do I know what I should be learning from this, but I am ok. I have a happy home, a perfect husband, cute puppies, woman of caliber, the gospel, my friends and family, and a smile on my face. So now what? Well, since Mama Jo moved, we have to spend the big bucks, with money we don't have and go to a specialist. The problem is, this specialist is in Utah. We went to one of his fertility seminars in January and it was great. I had so much hope after that. I called the fertility clinic to set up an apportionment with this Dr, and the ONLY time he is coming to Idaho is the week we will be in Las Vegas. He won't be up in Idaho again until June, when Idaho Falls opens up its fertility clinic. I am so heart broken and sad that I have to wait till June! That's only two months away, but I can do it. I can put my happy face on and shoot more guns.

This is me, not pregnant

Also on Monday, a terrible thing happened. My hair straightener broke! I was completely heart broken, mostly over the fact that I had to dig into my piggy bank and use the money I was planning on buying tactical yoga pants for shooting. Good thing I didn't have to wash my hair that day. So I through it in a bun, trekked to Ulta on my lunch break and spent my gun money on a very sparkly beautiful new flat iron. Later that day I had a salad for lunch, but I also had an entire bag of Cadbury eggs. Don't judge me.

Tuesday I went out to lunch with my super fun friends. We hit up McDonald's to let the kids play while we hung out with each other and talked adult stuff. I ended up with a salad, because I had a great workout at my circuit training class and I didn't want to ruin it.

My husband is the Young Men's president in our ward. He put on a fireside for our youth on Tuesday. He had his friend who is a recovered drug and alcohol addict come and tell his story. His friend owns an outpatient treatment center here in town called Renaissance Ranch, where Chris used to be a drug and alcohol counselor there. I have heard his story before and I think it is amazing. I see a little bit of me in his story, although I was never addicted, I felt the power and the change of the Atonement. In the speakers talk he said to this day, he still has dreams about his addiction, about drinking and smoking. It made me realize I do too. At least maybe once a week I have a dream about me smoking, drinking, and doing drugs again and feeling so ashamed and terrible and trying to hide it from my husband. I told Chris I have these dreams and he said I have an addictive personality. I am so glad I got out when I did, and so grateful Chris saved me and that I'm clean from the power of the Atonement. We ordered a huge pie from a cute little bakery here in Idaho and it was the best pie I have ever had. It pretty much ruining my life too, since we brought the left overs home and I have a food addiction ( maybe I should go to the treatment center)

By the time Friday rolled around I decided it was a pizza Friday. So like the good wife I am, I ordered pizza and wings. Chris has worked super late every night this week, so I plopped myself on the couch with my dinner and a ice cold Diet Mountain Dew and hit up some Hulu. After I vegged out for a bit, I got some home work done (next week is finals)

I have a dear dear love for Diet Dew. It runs in my veins

Saturday I went to Zumba to burn off my sins from the week. Its the best thing to do on a Saturday morning, wake up, and get super sweaty while trying to be sexy as your shaking your booty. Its a good time and makes me pretty happy.

Did you know I have curly hair? Yes, its natural. Since I didn't have much time to shower after Zumba to get ready to listen to General Conference ( You can watch it here:www.lds.org) I decided it would be faster to let my hair go, and man is it wild. I am not a big fan of my crazy hair, so this picture is just an explanation as to why I have to straighten the crap out of it!

I also woke up to some tricky little girls pranking me. There was candy all over my car, with cute notes written on my window's like "Your boobaful" "you done been pranked" "The pranking queen has been punked" "Happy April Fools" Sweet girls, it made my morning and I love them. Now I just have to figure out what I am going to do to them!