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Friends

I want to address the topic of friends. We all have friends that are in our lives temporarily, some who really weren't your friends, friends who are your best friends and keep in contact with frequently and friends who are your soul mate friends where you can go forever without talking to each other but are still your best friends and will always be.

 I take friendship seriously. I think I am so self conscious about myself that when I have friends it excites me that someone may actually like me. Yes, I am a big weirdo and its great when I can find my weirdo counterpart. Now, I recently left Women of Caliber. I loved it and I thought it was where I belonged and that the ladies were like my best friends. None of my friends shoot or are into guns so this was my home. There is actually a lot more to the story as to why I left and I have tried being respectful but it is hard when your feelings are deeply hurt. Especially when your feelings are hurt over and over and over again. It was something to shrug off initially but when it continues you need to get that negativity out of your life. I have had some ladies "unfriend" me on Facebook because I had left the club. I was slightly confused and thought friendship was more than just being part of a club. I thought friendship was beyond that. Those ladies were really not my friends. I lead on to be this strong person with a fun personality but if you really know me you will understand I am deeply sensitive. Chris and I say "Soft feelers." I don't know why I let things get to me, but I do. I constantly think people don't like me or think I'm dumb, or stupid or ugly. It's just how my mind works. That's why I am grateful for my true friends and I am blessed with many of them. Take my dearest Amy for instance, who bought me socks the other day that say "I Love You" for no reason! I appreciated them more than I led on because at work I am a tough gangster without feelings.

So we all know of my good friend Rachel aka Mama Jo, who moved to Rhode Island, where I am from. Her birthday was last week and I thought it would be fun to surprise her! I text my long time childhood best friend  Nicole from way back to Girl Scouts to help me out. Of course she said yes because we love a good prank and funny things ( If you only knew us as kids.) So I shipped the bear suit out to Nicole (Do you know how much it costs to mail a bear suit! It was worth it though.) The plan was for Nicole to bring cookies to Rachel in the bear suit. One evening I got a selfie picture from Rachel with her and Nicole. It made me so happy and I could not stop laughing!! Rachel thought it was me at first the bear suit! I am so grateful for Nicole and that she did that for meet! THANK YOU NICOLE! I am glad Rachel enjoyed my little prank! I was mostly happy to see two different parts of my life meet! 




At the end of the week I was about ready to crawl in a corer and cry because this semester is so crazy and I want my life back! Saturday evening some girl friends and I took a road trip to the casino for some Bingo! It was a fun evening and we didn't win anything, but that's ok we enjoyed our time together and had lots of fun! We really missed Jenni though! We always went to the casino with Jenni but since she moved to the big city of Boise we had to go with out her! It was so sad but I sent her this picture:
We were still together in our hearts!


PS: Did you know it is highly frowned upon to take pictures in the casino? We always learn that the hard way. 


So that evening was also an awards banquet for the gun club I shoot at. I made plans to go play bingo well in advanced so I didn't go. Chris went with his friend and I got a plethora of pictures from Chris's friend of Chris while I was trying to concentrate on my Bingo card. I then got a text from both of them of an award that I won! I lost all concentration at that point and was so excited! ( I could have won thousands of dollars but we will never know) I won 3rd place for the ladies division in USPSA. I was shocked and amazed. I didn't even think about getting an award at all, I suck at shooting and I think it is a fun way to waste lots of money. Third place may be nothing to some people but to me it was everything! I really don't know how I did it and I am so happy. It is something I will cherish forever and be super proud of. Again, its lame 3rd place but I won first for cutest! Am I right or am I right? The guys I shoot with are so kind and so nice to me. This is such a man's sport but I have gotten so much support from the guys. They are so willing to help and give tips or even let you borrow gear ammo and such. I remember bursting out into tears at the State Match and some of the guys were still so nice, even when I can be sassy at times. I suck at shooting, I can't ever hit the target but the support I get is great. I will never be better than them and that is ok, Its for fun and its a sport I love dearly and want to succeed at. 




Basically, I am deeply grateful for all my friends in my life, the real ones, the ones who are always there, the kind ones, the fun ones, the honest ones. Whether I see you everyday, once a year or once every 10 years I am grateful you are my friend and I appreciate your love and kindness towards me. 

Peace out my home skillets. Enjoy your week and enjoy cute puppy pictures








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