Holy cow its been 3 weeks since I blogged! I have been way too busy. I started a nanny job for just a month. The kids were so good and it was so fun! I am not used to working nearly 40 hours a week though so it was rough at first, I was tired but I really enjoyed it and I really enjoyed being with the kids.
Chris and I also went to our second fertility specialist. Basically after my body was violated with ultrasounds, blood work and tests for Chris, we found out my eggs don't work and neither does Chris's sperm. So we have to do IVF if we want kids. The office we go to was having a 5k called "Foot Steps For Fertility" The 5k was a fundraiser where they were giving away one free IVF cycle and a $5,000 dollar grant towards IVF. It was a raffle where for every person you had sign up on your team was entered into the drawing under your name to win. Some how we had 41 team members sign up, we had the second largest team! I was in complete awe and shock that we had so many people who love and care about us. The 5k came and we had our friends and family there to walk/run with us. I was so overwhelmed with the support we had. We didn't end up winning and it was strange, because I was ok. I didn't cry and I wasn't upset. I think I am to the point where I am numb from it. Its been 10 years, whats another 10? We have been dealt this unfair hand and it is just something I am used to now. We lost, nothing new, time to move on. It is also pretty shitty that IVF also costs $10,000. Seriously, who the hell has $10,000 to just TRY to have a baby and there's only a 60% chance that you take home a baby? Life isn't fair. There are women out there whining that the government wont let them kill their babies, well why doesn't the government make IVF affordable so I, who actually wants a child and not kill it, can raise a kid that would actually do something for society. Rant over.
Chris and I also went to our second fertility specialist. Basically after my body was violated with ultrasounds, blood work and tests for Chris, we found out my eggs don't work and neither does Chris's sperm. So we have to do IVF if we want kids. The office we go to was having a 5k called "Foot Steps For Fertility" The 5k was a fundraiser where they were giving away one free IVF cycle and a $5,000 dollar grant towards IVF. It was a raffle where for every person you had sign up on your team was entered into the drawing under your name to win. Some how we had 41 team members sign up, we had the second largest team! I was in complete awe and shock that we had so many people who love and care about us. The 5k came and we had our friends and family there to walk/run with us. I was so overwhelmed with the support we had. We didn't end up winning and it was strange, because I was ok. I didn't cry and I wasn't upset. I think I am to the point where I am numb from it. Its been 10 years, whats another 10? We have been dealt this unfair hand and it is just something I am used to now. We lost, nothing new, time to move on. It is also pretty shitty that IVF also costs $10,000. Seriously, who the hell has $10,000 to just TRY to have a baby and there's only a 60% chance that you take home a baby? Life isn't fair. There are women out there whining that the government wont let them kill their babies, well why doesn't the government make IVF affordable so I, who actually wants a child and not kill it, can raise a kid that would actually do something for society. Rant over.
My sister made the CUTEST shirts for my nephews!! They said "Runnin' for a cousin" and "Team Brayton" it melted my heart, I really thought it was so sweet.
putting our 41 raffle tickets in to win! Or loose...
Ginger, Amy and I have been having fun at work like usual. Ginger brought in a thigh master and that created some entertainment for the day. Thanks Gingy.
I started going back to my Krav Maga classes! Just learning how to be more thug. Kicking ass and taking names. I am so glad to be back, it makes me feel happy, empowered, strong, and sore. It makes me feel like I am more than just a dumb little girl, that I can actually do damage and defend myself if I need to.
This week I am back to my normal schedule of staying at home in my yoga pants in front of the computer doing homework. I will also get back to my normal workout schedule and stop stress eating butterfingers. Wednesday night I will be the the third wheel for Chris and Stan as we go to the range to practice for our match on Saturday, and Friday is Bunco night!
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